Have you ever think about, death?

Death. Death. Death.

Tadi siang padahal di otak gw bergumul segala kalimat dan kata, persepsi dan makna dari segala penjuru. Where have they gone?

I haven't faced that much of deaths in my life. One, two, three.. Two close relatives and two school mates. Not much.

Ini jam satu pagi ya. It's been a while, gak bedagang (ngelantur).

Some people say,
death is not an end.

Some people say,
there's an after life and that's how they who left us will keep guiding us along the way

Some people say,
...

and I'm back and this is 10 a.m

You know. I was reading about Buddha last night, and it talks much about death. Well, have to be honest, people are playing hide and seek with death their whole lives.

I'm nearly eighteen. My mom was like, "why do you even bother to think about dying? It's for later issue." Not it's not. Death can find you at every corner. Death is one of the life's boiling point.

Die. Died. Death. Dying.
All those words are similiar to the life after what we're having at the moment.

Have you ever afraid of the death? Or the angels that they called "death eaters" as in HARRY POTTER? Have you afraid of them? People said that people with less faith in God would easily terrified of the death That's what the community usually said, but just c'mon... It's not what everybody wish for in everyday.

If that was talking about yourself, your death -this is started to sound spooky, that's still acceptable. But if it's talking about someone else's. Someone who's connected to you, someone who has been with you since the day you say "ta..ta..". Someone you think you're gonna have for a lifetime in your days is suddenly gone. Lost, somewhere you don't even capable to figure.

Everyone, everybody has always tried their best to minimalize the possibilities of losing someone or something they love. LOVE and LOST. LIFE and DEATH. They'd go at the same rhytme of sentence. Only, in opposites.

PARENTS. They are the first you see in the world. First one to kiss you, to hug you. First one to tell you what is life about. What is a cat a spoon a fork; how to sing, how to walk, how to run or ride a bike. They are the first to argue you, to laugh at you, to do all those stupid things to show how much they love you even more than their own lives. SIBLINGS.

The hole of which's lost could have never been replaced.

And then you grown up, you meet your best pals, you find your life's partner eventually... don't you just want to package them up and send them for yourself so you won't lose them from your sight? Ever?

One fine day on a way home, in the car, I accidentaly watch my sister, mom and dad. What if they whom passed away, someday? All the people do, don't they? But I'd never be warned and I dont want to.

No one could possibly know when they'll die or that someone'll close to it. But the person could feel it, my dad said my grandpa told him so.

"Never gone. Never far. In my heart is where you are. Always close. Everyday. Every step along the way."

Some say people die because their duties have all been accomplished. Really? Then what about those ghosts and their 'unfinished bussiness'? I don't really believe in those actually haha. That's why I hate to see those shows like Dunia Lain atau what so ever my sister loves to watch dan berakhir dengan ketakutan sendirian. Apaan sih.

An old man said, "You'd better face the death than face years of dying in sickness."

At some point of life, death actually bring its own person to some kind of joy, plus the fact that they would gathered back with their creators, right?

Have you afraid of the death?

I have. Not just about mine, but all the people surround me. I hate the lost feeling, who doesn't? Besides, that's human after all.